What to do next year

"What are your plans for next year?" he asks.

I don't know. I guess I've been in denial that there will be a next year here. The thing is, I don't know how long we'll be here at all. That makes it hard to plan. If I do go through with the tedious and expensive tests that I still need (3 of them for CT), and get my credential here, is it worth it? Will we move in 2 years, or 3 years or 4 years? Do I want to go through setting up a classroom (the time, energy and expense) for just a year? or 2? Then have to do it all over again wherever we end up in the long run?

I can't stay at home being a craft mom/substitute for much longer. I'm getting bored. I'm going to deplete my savings at some point. There are days when I don't see any other humans except Chris.

Could I even get a teaching job if I tried? If I don't, then my skills as a teacher are also diminishing and I'm becoming less and less attractive to my future school settings. I'm just not at all invested in Connecticut. Any aspect of it. Waaaah waaaah.

Home Sick

Have been quite home sick for California and friends for the past few days. But I'll be there for an extended visit soon enough. It really helped to have dinner and play a game of Settlers with some new friends (a husband and wife who like mountains and traveling and crafting). Why does it seem that all people with whom I connect are from the Bay Area?

Today was a bread making class with two women from Chris' lab. I liked them too. And FINALLY maybe we'll get some decent bread (home made may be the ONLY place to get whole wheat crusty bread).